Feh
Ugh. I’m so disappointed with myself right now. Still haven’t done that next task.
I know I shouldn’t be as hard on myself about it as I have been, but I’ve been feeling lonely.
In other news, I’ve got a dermatologist appointment tomorrow to get the freckle on my chin checked out along with a few other things as well.
Beer equity
Today I had the day off from work so I could get my foot checked out; after the initial diagnosis of metatarsalgia a few weeks ago I wanted a second opinion from another sports medicine practice. This is the same practice I went to when I had a stress fracture in my leg from running, but a different doctor (this time was with a podiatrist). They took X-Rays and checked out my foot and couldn’t really find anything wrong with it so I’m going ahead with getting orthopedic inserts for my shoes with metatarsal pads. They offered to give me a prescription to have an MRI done (I figured that I’d go for a run so it’d bother me, and then schedule the MRI appointment to get it checked out since it wasn’t really bothering me right now. Might as well give them something to look at, right?), but apparently my insurance first wants me to have six weeks of care with this doctor before they’ll approve an MRI? I’m not quite sure of the specifics. In any case, no running for me for six weeks. The sports medicine place is going to follow up with my insurance to see if they might be able to work something out in the meantime.
Afterwards I went to my therapy appointment and talked about how maybe I’m not so much afraid of rejection as I am afraid of being rude or inconsiderate? I’m always trying to be conscientious of others and guard how I act and behave in new situations and I think that causes me to tend to act much more conservatively than I’d normally act with people or situations I’m comfortable with. We talked about how I’m still struggling with this particular task from Rules of the Game and how I need some kind of incentive to carry it out. Not just positive incentive, but I need to have some sort of consequence if I don’t do what I intend to by the time I intend to do it. Since I was headed out to Georgetown later today with Dave to exchange his iPhone I figured that it’d be an opportune time to remedy this, and as a consequence I could buy Dave a beer if I didn’t. I ended up asking one girl we saw about the Nike run club, but didn’t do what my task was, so I bought him a beer like I said I would. I’ll try again tomorrow.
In between my psychologist appointment and meeting up with Dave I hung out in a few parks downtown and did some reading and sat and people-watched. Not too much exciting, but it was a nice day to just sit and relax and enjoy the weather.
You had me at "hello"
I still haven’t gotten around to fulfilling the current task in Rules of The Game. I’m supposed to go up to 3+ women and ask them for a menswear recommendation, but I’m finding it difficult to start the conversation. Maybe I should go back and tackle the previous assignment where I have to call up three wrong numbers and convince them to give me a movie recommendation. I thought that I don’t have any difficulty steering a conversation back towards a particular topic, but perhaps I do. Ugh. I don’t know. I need to treat this as something like flossing: it’s something that I should do, something that needs to be done, but something I don’t enjoy doing so I give myself more incentive to do so. ((Like buying a Waterpik flosser.)) I just need to find out what that incentive is that’ll make it more enjoyable for me. Or I should just man up and get it over with.
I feel like I keep trying to come up with a clever line to use as an opener and then I start thinking of how the conversation might go and then I don’t bother. I should really just start with “hello” and see what I end up saying from there.
I should make something up like Foodie Dice, but for challenges like this. Kind of a randomized rejection game, but for social interactions.
I think too if I make more time to journal – like now, just before bed – that would be helpful for me. I had been so caught up in using iAWriter that I forgot it didn’t have a night mode, while Byword does. I prefer Byword’s “Typewriter Mode” more than iAWriter’s “Focus Mode” anyway. I’ll probably still stick with iAWriter on the iPad, however.
I’m not sure what I’ll end up doing tomorrow; I don’t have any particular plans in mind, but I’d like to go out for a coffee or a bagel or something and tinker with my Fitzness webapp some more. Spent some time thinking about it today and I’m thinking about releasing it as free software once I get it to a stage where I’m comfortable doing so. That’d mean adding some server-side variable checking/sanitizing at the very least. I did find a particular GNU GPL license that would be suited for this project as a webapp where if someone released a version of it to the public then they’d have to release their modifications. I wouldn’t mind people implementing it for their own use – that’s what it’s designed for – but if someone were to come along and try to turn it into a more public piece of software I’d like to be able to run that myself. Plus, there’s also the possibility of getting some people to add features to my code, which would be nice.
We found out at work yesterday that we should be getting the extension for a few months. It sounds like it’d be a max of six months, but some of the government folks in charge of us seem to think it’d be six months at a minimum. Anyway, the good news is it sounds like I’ll still have a job for the immediate future!
Six months out of every year
I figured that I’d go to Easter mass today with the family, but for a while this morning it seemed as if I wasn’t expected to go. I ended up driving myself; when I couldn’t find parking at church I contemplated parking at home and walking there, but realized there was parking across the street on the other side of Bestgate Road. I didn’t really mind going, but I figured that if I didn’t go or make an effort when I couldn’t find any parking that I’d get yelled at for it. Went with the family afterwards to Aunt Ellen and Uncle Jack’s for Easter lunch. I’m just going to stay at Mom and Dad’s again tonight and go from there to work tomorrow morning.
It’s going to be a mess going home from work tomorrow, though. The Nationals start their season-opening game at 4 PM, so it’s going to be starting right around when I’ll be leaving.
Cleaned up a bunch of my emails tonight and went through my backlog of OkCupid suggested users. I wasn’t impressed with what I saw, though. Oh well.