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#2783 – a change is what i need

This was posted over 21 years ago; my opinions, thoughts, attitude, and writing style may have evolved since then, and this post might have been different if it were to be posted today.

loud blue man group beats

cars dancing in rear mirror

synthesized earthquake

i went to the job fair on campus today, gave out my resumé to two or three places and talked to another 3 or so. the guy from nothrop grumman seemed really enthusiastic about my resumé, as well as the people i spoke with at tresys. i don’t remember all the places i talked to off the top of my head, and i can’t look up the business cards and flyers i got because they’re all in my bag and i’m in class at the moment. let me see if i can remember… xerox, nsa, nothrop grumman, tresys, some IT consulting company based in france, clearchannel (yuk 😛 i didn’t really talk with them though, since i only stopped to look at their flyers – they’re not hiring musicbloggers, oh well), uhhh… i think that was it. at least i’m dressed classy today.

i feel like i need a change, like i’m stuck in a rut. i want to do more school stuff, but i can’t because i’m working full time. i want to explore other work options but i’m limited because of classes and school. (i was sick of recruiters asking “what’s your gpa?” :P). driving to school i felt like i was in a daze. i’ve felt that way for the past week or so – i’d be awake, but i stell felt like i could be asleep, like i wasn’t all there. i almost thought i was seeing some things that weren’t there, like a quick flash of something in my rear view mirror that just as suddenly disappeared. i just need to get myself doing something else; i feel like all i’ve been doing has been the same thing every single day. i feel like my life has stagnated, and it’s not fun, not one bit.

i walked around campus a little bit after the job fair and deposited my check in the bank for now, then walked around some while listening to my ipod.

i stopped at a vending machine and a poster advertising studying abroad at temple university in japan caught my eye, so i took a postcard to send in for an application. *shrug* it couldn’t hurt…