you can send me to bed, but you can't make me sleep

it’s hard to go to sleep when your stomach is empty and your mind is full.

i’m tired, but i think i’m too preoccupied / paranoid to get some good sleep.

while the easy solution to the empty stomach is to eat, there is no simple way to clear thoughts and worries from your mind. especially when you’re alone. especially especially when the future is involved.

i try to tell myself that some things are just out of my control, to just let things flow (“oh well” is the motto, remember?)… but it’s not doing me any good.


if i wasn’t so tired (and if it wasn’t 4 am) i’d go for a walk downtown and sit at my bench…