odd thing happened last night when i went to bed – i started crying.

dunno why. it wasn’t like a *sob sob* cry or anything like that… tears just started flowing. i felt it was a really dumb thing to do for no reason – at least, i couldn’t think of a good reason go be crying. and i felt totally in control, too. why should i be crying? in any case, even though i felt i was in control, it wouldn’t stop.

the thing that still puzzles me is the fact that tears were only coming out of my left eye. and there wasn’t anything in it that would warrant my eye tearing to cleanse it and remove any foreign object.

it freaked me out, i can tell you that.